Saturday, January 12, 2008

Breathing?

Breathing?
LEGEND
(-) means hold note (;) pause
(yu-oo) break up syllables (_) trail off
(…) get quieter
(///) get louder

-VERSE 1-
All these faces
Familiar faces
Fade a-way -----
These pacing rooms
These; empty rooms
Are filled with words

-BRIDGE-
I’m just losing grip
Just; falling da-own
Crashing to the grou-ound…
Breaking every bone
In my frail bo-ody… ; now

-CHOROUS-
But, I can’t Breath///
I’d like to force a smile
Every once and a while
But I am choking
Just suffocating
Losing sight
Losing might
Am I really
Breathing?...

-VERSE 2-
Painted onto a ble-eek ----
Canvas__
Washed away by your
Hate.
Smiles gone; no one has wo-ooon
My heart, my soul, am I even---
Alive?

-CHOROUS-
(Louder than first time)

-CONCLUSION-
Am I breathing?
Am I alive…___

Friday, November 23, 2007

I Won!

Just thought I'd let you know that I entered a poetry contest, and I am a semifinalist. I'm getting published in a compilation of poems. I am also in the running for a 1,000$ prize.

I Made Him Smile

I Made Him Smile

The hall swarmed with faces that I saw everyday, but yet, I knew none of them. At least I had friends, scratch that, I had tons of friends. When you go to a high school with 3,000 students it isn’t that uncommon to not know someone. I stood with my back against the cool metal of my locker, waiting for my friend to show up. I stared into the sea of people in front of me, and Grey walked by. I didn’t know Grey personally, but I will tell you how I knew Grey’s name.
He was known as the school’s “emo-kid.” In other words he had long black hair, never smiled, never spoke, had no friends, and came across as very depressed. I don’t blame him for feeling the way he did. No one even acknowledged his existence, and if rumor was true he was a foster child. I would typically never dare talk to a kid with his reputation, for fear of ruining my own, but I decided that I would try something new.
My back left the lockers, and I strode towards Grey, who had stopped at his locker across the hall. I walked beside him, and leaned my shoulder on the locker next to his.
“Hey Grey,” I said, trying to sound like I wasn’t trying to make fun of him. He just ignored me, still rummaging through his locker, which was filled with different band pictures.
“Look, just leave me alone. I’m not in the mood.” He said this sternly, never taking his eyes away from the items in his locker.
“I’m not…” He cut me off.
“I said buzz off. If you’d like to make fun of me at least wait until tomorrow!” This time he was almost shouting, and several heads turned in our direction. A hand grabbed my shoulder facing the hallway.
I turned and it was Kate, the girl I was waiting for, my girlfriend to be precise.
“Hey what’s up?” I asked her, turning my attention away from Grey.
“Not much.” She shifted her gaze away from my eyes, and to Grey, still sifting through the objects in his locker. “Why are you over here with…him?” she asked coolly?
“I was just saying hi, is that a problem; and why did you say him with that tone of voice?”
“It’s not a problem; I just didn’t know you chose to spend your spare time with freaks.” Her boldness sent anger down my spine.
“Look, he’s not a freak, and if you can’t respect him for who he is, then we are over!” I was shouting. I was furious. She took the hint.
“Then I guess we are over,” she said sternly, and stormed off in the other direction. I was in utter shock. Did this really just happen?

Two hours later I walked into the cafeteria, and this time even my friends seemed not to know me. I guessed Kate had already brought them the “terrible” news. For once I didn’t care what people thought of me, I didn’t care if I was in the “in-crowd”. All I could care about was Grey, and how he felt after Kate’s obnoxious remark.
I spotted him at the end of a table, sitting all by himself, as he always did. I made two bold moves that day; 1.) I said hi to him, 2.) I decided to sit with him at lunch. I took my seat across from him, and watched as he stared at his empty tray.
“Already ate?” I asked, trying to get him to talk. No response. “Look, you know I’m not trying to poke fun at you, you saw how she bro…” He cut me off once more.
“She broke up with you, and it’s my entire fault - just another reason for the world to hate me.”
“The world doesn’t hate you Grey, they just don’t understand, and I’m trying to understand. All you have to do is let me in.” I said this as sympathetically as I could.
“Well…” he trailed off, looking as if he was pondering over what I just said. His black hair covered one of his eyes, and the other one was staring down. “I guess I could try. What’s your name?”
“My name is Kyle, and I’m glad to make a new friend.”
“Me?” he asked. I swore I heard a hint of excitement in his voice.
“Yes, you,” I said chuckling.
He looked up, exposing both of his eyes.
“Thanks, this means a lot.” He said this, but followed by a smile. I hadn’t seen this boy smile in the entire 2 years I had gone to school with him.
“Anytime,” I said simply. I was ecstatic. I made him smile. I made Grey, the “emo-kid” smile.

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Just Hold On

He held her in his arms, gently wiping the raindrops off her face. The more he thought, he began to realize that the rain was mixed in with his steady stream of tears. The sound of the rain and her raspy breathing was all he could hear.

Her eyes opened, glanced at her car, which laid upside down, half mutilated, then they turned to him – Peter.

“Peter, what happened?” Olivia asked. He could tell she was fading away. Instead of telling her about how he fell asleep, leaving her along at the wheel. And he didn’t tell her that she fell asleep because of the lack of company. He didn’t tell her that they crashed, and were sitting in the median, drenched in rain. Instead he told her this;

“I loved you. That’s what happened.”

“I love you too.” She smiled. He smiled. Their smiles seemed to last forever, but as always, forever is never long enough.

Her face twisted with pain, and she cried out; “Peter help!”

He just held Olivia tighter and tighter for there was nothing he could do. She let out a sigh. Her eyes froze. She was dead.

He kissed her, and allowed himself to give up. He had ignored his pain so she wouldn’t have had to watch him die. He said a prayer, and laid back. He did not bother to close his eyes. He wanted to belike her – he wanted it to be fair.

He positioned himself as comfortably as possible, and let the pain slowly take over him, causing his death.

It's Come to an End

[the song that started my writing craze]


As the months rolled by I saw us changing
And in our eyes I could see the feeling
How I wish I could run back in time
I’d run 2006 miles
To get to time when we were happy
And maybe we would all see

CHOROUS
That I found a leader
That I found a love
And I found a best friend
But now it’s come to an end
It’s come to an end

When I swallow up my sorrows
And I run into the shadows
I see your face
And I quicken my pace, (to get to you) x2

CHOROUS(Eliminate “that”)

The closer we got
The further we became
Relationships brought
So much pain

CHOROUS(same as above)

And now that it’s over
I try to uncover
The reasons why we changed
And I fight for the past
However long the war will last
I have a feeling
[slow] That it will never be the same

Dont Leave

I know change is good
And no force can stop it;
But maybe if we could give our all
We could try to stall

CHOROUS
Please don’t leave my dear
I know you hear me whisper in you ear
We could change for the better (x2)

The world has stopped and here’s our chance
Please just try or take a glance;
At the possibility to stop the change

CHOROUS

Leavin’ me so soon?
With nothing but the moon,
Starin’ down at me,
Too bad there’s not much to see;
Cuz’ I’m half the man I could be,
If you didn’t leave;
Please try to go back to the old way,
The way when I didn’t have to say…
Just stay, please my dear just stay,
Or at least leave enough for the moon to look at
If anything just give me that
Stay

Take another Piece of Me

Why you’re welcome dear old lady
Anytime, I’ll help you out
Like every one around me
For me is whom they shout

Don’t pay me back-oh never
Just use me like a tool
I’ll cut my heart out and hand it over
Take another piece of me
!AGAIN!

CHOROUS
You take me apart
And leave me strewn across the floor
No thanks, just depart
Not knowing what’s in store
You leave me in pieces
For others to come and take
Take advantage of me
I can’t stand it, can’t you see?
Take another piece of me

Up and down I run the halls
Fulfilling the annoying calls
I serve you for nothing
What do I get

CHOROUS

It’s don’t
I’ll take a piece of you