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Cloud 9
Bleed it Out
A Summertime Winter
Drowning in Bad Thought
Impulse
Old Friends
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Old Friends
Old friends come by my window
Tapping for permission in.
I refuse with haste although,
I’d love to commit the deadly sin.
The taste of a past addiction,
A metallic sensation of rush-
Leaves a young one in desolation,
With every second thought told to hush.
But he loves it relentlessly,
Never losing the desire.
It burns on endlessly,
An always hungry fire.
But he’s stronger,
Oh, he is.
Can he take it longer,
This addiction of his?
It scrapes at you ever so softly,
Convincing you it’s choice.
But ever so quietly,
It mutes his voice.
Tapping for permission in.
I refuse with haste although,
I’d love to commit the deadly sin.
The taste of a past addiction,
A metallic sensation of rush-
Leaves a young one in desolation,
With every second thought told to hush.
But he loves it relentlessly,
Never losing the desire.
It burns on endlessly,
An always hungry fire.
But he’s stronger,
Oh, he is.
Can he take it longer,
This addiction of his?
It scrapes at you ever so softly,
Convincing you it’s choice.
But ever so quietly,
It mutes his voice.
Impulse
Every cut starts with an impulse
And every impulse starts with a pressure
To be like everyone else
And why you cannot find the cure
Even the strongest walls break
Under the pressure of a thousand pressing hands
Muddy, wet, and cold, handprints they make
A thousand of them, each a grain of sand
Every wheezing child
Crying in a mother’s arm
Causes her complexion, so mild
Sends us into a state of panicked alarm
Tastes of tears, so bittersweet
Can’t overwhelm your impulse
All those faces you’ll never meet
Try to feel the dying pulse
All of these things swirling around
Not making much sense to the ear
Try to scream without a sound
Just trying to conceal the fear
The fear of the unknown
Unsaid, and undone
My regrets thrown
Out on the ground like a dirty night gown
To delicate to clean
To beautiful to destroy
Intentions not meant to be mean
You realize the knife could be a fun toy
The impulse suffocates
An arm now one more scar older
Your fear elevates
Emotions put out in a fire left to smolder
And every impulse starts with a pressure
To be like everyone else
And why you cannot find the cure
Even the strongest walls break
Under the pressure of a thousand pressing hands
Muddy, wet, and cold, handprints they make
A thousand of them, each a grain of sand
Every wheezing child
Crying in a mother’s arm
Causes her complexion, so mild
Sends us into a state of panicked alarm
Tastes of tears, so bittersweet
Can’t overwhelm your impulse
All those faces you’ll never meet
Try to feel the dying pulse
All of these things swirling around
Not making much sense to the ear
Try to scream without a sound
Just trying to conceal the fear
The fear of the unknown
Unsaid, and undone
My regrets thrown
Out on the ground like a dirty night gown
To delicate to clean
To beautiful to destroy
Intentions not meant to be mean
You realize the knife could be a fun toy
The impulse suffocates
An arm now one more scar older
Your fear elevates
Emotions put out in a fire left to smolder
Drowning in Bad Thought
As I sit here in wonder
Marveling my self
I am simply
Drowning.
Self obsessing
Over a self
That hates what it’s
In.
Obsessing over a no self
Esteem freak
That thinks so
Bad.
Of himself
He hates himself
Obsessing over that
Thought.
Marveling my self
I am simply
Drowning.
Self obsessing
Over a self
That hates what it’s
In.
Obsessing over a no self
Esteem freak
That thinks so
Bad.
Of himself
He hates himself
Obsessing over that
Thought.
Cloud 9
If you shook me
I wouldn’t feel it
If you whispered to me
I wouldn’t hear you
Cause I’m in the clouds
Dancing to a song
That only I
Can hear
An opiate of mine
A ridiculous obsession
And addiction so sweet
To be on my own
Jaded
Burned
Left out
But I don’t care
The ultimate
Seclusion
But seclusion
By choice
I wouldn’t feel it
If you whispered to me
I wouldn’t hear you
Cause I’m in the clouds
Dancing to a song
That only I
Can hear
An opiate of mine
A ridiculous obsession
And addiction so sweet
To be on my own
Jaded
Burned
Left out
But I don’t care
The ultimate
Seclusion
But seclusion
By choice
Bleed it Out
I found it
I need it
And I’m bleeding it now
Bleeding it now, I’m bleeding it now
And I feel it
I breath it
And with every breath it hurts just a little bit more
Just a little bit more
And every time I open my eyes I’m seeing it now
And before times up I gather my stuff
And bleed it now
Bleed it now
And I knew him once, and I knew her twice
And each time it wasn’t so nice
Cause they bled it now
They bled it out
Please help them
Cause I’m falling with them
I’m falling hard
And we just keep bleeding it all out on the ground
And my life is so numb
From all our bleeding
Where’s our meaning
We can’t keep singing
We just keep bleeding
And a heart’s out on the ground
We scream for help without a sound
Without a sound
Without a sound
Cause it’s just here
And we’re just there
He’s bleeding it now
She’s bleeding it out
Please help them
Cause I’m falling with them
I’m falling hard
And we just keep bleeding it all out on the ground
My life is so numb
His smile is gone
And every time she picked it up
It won
Will we bleed it out
For years to come
Let us out
Please someone
I need it
And I’m bleeding it now
Bleeding it now, I’m bleeding it now
And I feel it
I breath it
And with every breath it hurts just a little bit more
Just a little bit more
And every time I open my eyes I’m seeing it now
And before times up I gather my stuff
And bleed it now
Bleed it now
And I knew him once, and I knew her twice
And each time it wasn’t so nice
Cause they bled it now
They bled it out
Please help them
Cause I’m falling with them
I’m falling hard
And we just keep bleeding it all out on the ground
And my life is so numb
From all our bleeding
Where’s our meaning
We can’t keep singing
We just keep bleeding
And a heart’s out on the ground
We scream for help without a sound
Without a sound
Without a sound
Cause it’s just here
And we’re just there
He’s bleeding it now
She’s bleeding it out
Please help them
Cause I’m falling with them
I’m falling hard
And we just keep bleeding it all out on the ground
My life is so numb
His smile is gone
And every time she picked it up
It won
Will we bleed it out
For years to come
Let us out
Please someone
A Summertime Winter
I desire what I can’t
Holding back is all I’m allowed
Bringing back summertime memories
A book of faded mind photographs
It caught my eye
Even though it shouldn’t have
Their face, their laugh
But I can’t
So worry and frustration
Fill my mind
But I close my eyes
And take away the pain
But it’s only temporary
Because when I come back to reality
It just burns even more
Searing my mind and heart
But the next remembered summer
Is just around the bend
But the closer I get
The more dangerous it becomes
Just another chance
To make a friend
And lose another
Or lose them all at once
You hold your breath and wonder
If the upset is worth it
And you think of course
But something is stopping you
I’m taking the chance I’ve always wanted
Asking forbidden questions
All on the one night
In my summertime winter
Holding back is all I’m allowed
Bringing back summertime memories
A book of faded mind photographs
It caught my eye
Even though it shouldn’t have
Their face, their laugh
But I can’t
So worry and frustration
Fill my mind
But I close my eyes
And take away the pain
But it’s only temporary
Because when I come back to reality
It just burns even more
Searing my mind and heart
But the next remembered summer
Is just around the bend
But the closer I get
The more dangerous it becomes
Just another chance
To make a friend
And lose another
Or lose them all at once
You hold your breath and wonder
If the upset is worth it
And you think of course
But something is stopping you
I’m taking the chance I’ve always wanted
Asking forbidden questions
All on the one night
In my summertime winter
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