A Summertime Winter

I desire what I can’t
Holding back is all I’m allowed
Bringing back summertime memories
A book of faded mind photographs

It caught my eye
Even though it shouldn’t have
Their face, their laugh
But I can’t

So worry and frustration
Fill my mind
But I close my eyes
And take away the pain

But it’s only temporary
Because when I come back to reality
It just burns even more
Searing my mind and heart

But the next remembered summer
Is just around the bend
But the closer I get
The more dangerous it becomes

Just another chance
To make a friend
And lose another
Or lose them all at once

You hold your breath and wonder
If the upset is worth it
And you think of course
But something is stopping you

I’m taking the chance I’ve always wanted
Asking forbidden questions
All on the one night
In my summertime winter